Why are you doing this to yourself? Please Raj, don’t drink so much. This is not going to solve your problems. What good is it going to do to either you or me? Raj, speak up something, I shouted.
You know Seema; I know very well that drinking is not going to help us. But I would like to tell you something my dear wife; it is you who is the reason behind all this.
I was shocked to hear that. Did he really blame me for everything? I fumed with anger.
What did you just say Raj, I am the reason behind the problems you are going through. Was it me who told you to trust your business partner? Was it me who was the reason behind the loss you suffered in business? You were foolish to take such decisions which not only spoiled your life but also mine. I would want to know Mr Raj where am I involved in all this?
Yes sure it was entirely my mistake. I was foolish enough to trust all the people in this world. But you know financial loss is not as bad as what you are doing to me right now. Suddenly our life has become yours and mine for you. You have changed dear, you have changed, he said and walked away.
I was lying on my bed that night alone. I started thinking about what Raj had said to me, had I really changed? My life till today flashed before my eyes.
I remember meeting Raj at a cousin’s marriage. He was a very well behaved person. My parents told me, he had his own family business. His father had expired the previous year and he had taken all the responsibilities in his hands. It was a typical arranged marriage but I fell in love with him the moment i saw him. I was only 22 when we married. I had just finished my graduation. Raj who was 26 was much more matured than I was.
He proved to be a very nice life partner. He always kept a superb balance between his business and family. Gave me all the things I wanted in life. The life he gave me was amazing. I could not ask for more.
He spread his business over more than ten cities in India. His success spread like fire. My life was perfect. I was a homemaker, never thought of becoming independent because of the only reason that Raj never made me feel that I was dependent on him. He just handed all the money to me and I had the freedom to spend it in any way I want.
Our life was perfect until the day when I got my medical reports. The reports said that I could never ever conceive in my life. My life turned upside down. I completely broke down. Raj took me to many psychiatrists but to no avail. Once Raj sat beside me and asked me “Say something Seema. At least talk to me. Please.”
“I m sorry Raj, I m extremely sorry. I can’t give you a child. I m sorry”, I replied
To this Raj told me, “Seema I don’t want anything in this world. Just give me my Seema back. That’s what I need.”
That day I realized how lucky I was to have Raj in my life. Everything was perfect again. Raj loved me in the same way he did before. Nothing at all had changed. Raj had not changed.
But life had its own ways to make us unhappy. Raj’s business partner had betrayed him. Raj who was so sincere towards his work had lost everything just because he had trust his partner blindly.
When he told me all this, I just blamed him for his foolishness of trusting people without even realizing what he was going through.
We sold all our valuable things and shifted to a small apartment. And there I kept nagging him about how I missed having all the luxuries of life. I was very selfish. I never thought of what Raj had faced. A loss and betrayal from a person he trusted so much.
Life had changed and yes I had changed. How could I forget all those days when Raj accepted me without a complaint? How could I forget the happiness he had given me all this while? Tears started rolling out of my eyes. I realized how wrong I was.
I went to Raj, stood in front of him. I wanted to apologize but was not getting the right words. I was merely crying and doing nothing else.
“Seema, I know what you want to tell me. It’s ok. Words are not the only way to express your feelings. I still love you Seema....” said Raj.
Someone has rightly said “Relationship is not about being with someone at their best; it’s about being with them at their worst”
